Exaggerated Smile

Hey you out there xx

After a lot of days up and down I told myself, that today's gonna be a good day. The very best day. So I dressed up, made my hair and make up and practiced the perfect smile before I said heeeey xx to the world. Ok, so I went out and smiled at every stranger..not as you do it usually, but exaggerated.

Although the greek philosoph Aristotle teaches us to choose the middle between two extremes, sometimes you have to go for the extrem. In my case: The extrem smile. - And I really meant it.

It was worth it. I didn't just feel nice and good but also got compliments about my shoes, had people smile at me and even a grandpa talk to me. The hot emergency paramedic, who's wallet fell on the ground, while we had a long eye contact is my favorite. But who knows? There are still more than 10 hours to go :-)

Lots of Love xoxo

Cheeky!

“Become good at cheating and you never need to become good at anything else.” — Banksy

Lots of Love xoxo

Always keep in mind

- Life is a journey, not a race -

I know all of you know this, as it's an easy thing. But we forget it too often. 

We make plans for our life: Family, Career, Self-Sulfillement. We want to be the best.

..The best. But we forget, that it's not a race.

It's all about learning. It's a journey...You begin somewhere and keep going without really knowing where to go often. And on your way you see a lot of things and have many moments, which affect you.

Today I met a friend of mine and we talked about education. She finished high school and started college. What she did there, was her A-Levels and an educator training at the same time. After some months she realized, she doesn't like the job she is learning to do for the rest of her life..so she left school and now is at home, figuring out, what to do next.

Most poeple would call this 'failure' and actually, this was my first thought. I thought about it..

And really? This is not failure. It's braveness. In this material world, most people would finish their education no matter what..so they get a job and earn a lot of money. My friend isn't like that, but braver. She broke the stereotype, left the race. 

Studying education was her long-term dream..she always wanted this. And now, once she experienced it live, she learnt, that she isn't happy, going all the way straight like this. She took another way and the jurney goes on.. She will see new things, new perspectives. 

My friend is one of the happiest people I know. Even her name shows that..it means: "joy bringer".

Lots of Love xoxo

Everyone's

-You look normal.
-I'm sad.
-Everyone's sad.

Lots of Love xoxo

Once upon a time...(or should I say: Y'all ain't gonna believe that shit!)

How does it come, that people always want to have what they can't have? The unreachable?

Maybe it's our believe in fairies, tales and fairytales. I mean..there are happening magical things all the time in such stories and we wish our life to be as magical as these tails are.
We'll never be satisfied with the second best and reaching the unreachable often will piss us off.. Dreams make our life beautiful. They are there to be dreamt about..they don't have to be reached. We want magical, unreachable. We don't want an earthly Cinderella, who would pick up the shoe, even if she is short in time. We want her to be as unrealistic as poissible and just leave the shoe and run away. We don't want her to be like a normal girl and tell her true identity, so she can stay at the ball with her prince..much more we want her to run away and keeping her true self a secret.

- It's fairytale..on crack. - 

(magic is coming.)

Lots of Love xoxo

Necessity

Smile to strangers. Wish people a nice day. Help your family. Call your friends. Be nice to yourself. Say thank you and remember how happy you are. Feel your heartbeat.
Listen to your faovirte song and spend a day with someone, who needs love.

..because, really, that is all you need. Actually it is even all the people around you need. Just saying :b

Lots of Love xoxo

Prime

Heyday! x Look how beautiful everything outside is.

Blossoms & flourishing life.

- People wash their laundry everyday. Why not their hearts? -

Lots of Love xoxo

Story of your life

- We must be the change we wish to see in the world -

This picture helps me to understand the quote. A bowl of yoghurt and raspberries. - I always love to help people, when it comes to eating, doing sports, dieting and living healthy..The more people I meet at my daily running routines, the happier is my day. It's my way of changing the world. Of seeing things.

What are you like? How do you want this world to be?

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Lots of Love xoxo

expectations

We have them in almost every sphere of life. there's always a way, we expect things to be or happen.
And then, suddenly, out of nothing, something unexpectd happens and gets us
off the track.

Life's one big, strange thing.
But often, if we have the right perspective, it turns out to be good.

Lots of Love xoxo

In the end, we'll remember the silence of our friends.

This made my day xx

Lots of Love xoxo

Feelings x

Some weeks ago someone asked me to write down things, that make me happy. My list was longer than two pages..There are really a million things in life, that cheer me up. And then there are this moments I just feel like an emotional wreck. Everyone has it.
What makes you happy then? I don't know what makes me happy then..or if any of the things on my list would make me happy then.

So what is it really to create happiness? What is it? Certainly it has to be something to make you happy at any time..unless it isn't of that kind, it isn't real. That can't be a never ending list of beautiful things.

What then? I really want to know it.

PS: I love God to join my mourning. Maybe he is my happy?

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Lots of Love xoxo

What is it, that you pursuit?

Whatever it is, you won't find it at any place in this world. Maybe you will have to leave the place you are at now to find it, but the truth is: It's not the place. It's your mind you should search. It's the mind to find things..to - see - things.

Lots of Love xoxo

Borderline

There are things in life we shouldn't do, although we would really want to. We want them, but we are rational...we know life would be better if we wouldn't do this things. There's a borderline between what we should and shouldn't do..
Everyone has these things. Either it's about a relationship, activity, principles or something else.

I always log my food - so I can control my calorie intake and keep my weight..For a very, very long time I stuck to this principle of mine. I wrote down everything I ate all day long and then clicked the 'Complete' button and finished eating for that day. And then, once, I crossed the borderline and didn't log all the food. Consequence: 1) I could have gained weight. 2) Main important: I was lying to myself. ..After this one time I stopped crossing the border. Another time - for a longer time - I crossed the borderline again. It didn't feel so bad all the time. Doing it more often made it feel okay, not wrong anymore.

Borderlines stop to feel wrong after crossing them over and over again. But they are wrong..They really are. We are just lying to ourselves. We say it's not so bad, but actually it is. That's why they are called borderlines, limits, boundarys, metes, edges, peripherys. That's why we shouldn't cross them.

- Borderlines are in our lifes for a reason. -

Find out why.

Lots of Love xoxo

..written in the scars on our hearts..

And then there are those songs playing in the background. You think they are just "okay" and then suddenly they touch your heart. Heal the scars.

Lots of Love xoxo

No matter what struggle!!

It's just a few words. But their power is a big one. Everytime I fail I know he is there to carry me. Better: I feel he is there.

I was so crazy to forget to read the scripture in the mornings. Just forgot it. My days were strange and I was wondering why. I couldn't wait for sundays and felt like there is something missin'.

It was God. He was missin'. He was there, in my heart, next to me. He always is. But I was ignoring him. Still I felt his blessings. I just missed talking to him.

Once you realize he'll never leave you, it's huge. It's amazing. The feeling. Security.-

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Lots of Love xoxo

Summertime Sadness.

I don't think this song is so famous, just because it sounds so good or because Lana Del Rey is so beautiful. For me, already the title is precious and worthy. Everytime I listen to this song my hands get cold and I just want to shake. My heartbeat starts to beat in Summertime Sadness.
It's because I'm a winter person. I never understood...Being born in the middle of Summer, but loving Winter to much. I always loved things, other hated and didn't like the stuff other people liked.
Blue - the most famous favorite color. Realized as a kid, that all kids around me loved blue. Till then I didn't like it. The same with pink. I was a green kid and still am today.
House and Techno - at the age of 13/14 all of my male classmates started to listen to Techno and girls to House. It was this time, that I started to like Rap.

Summer - Everyone feels like summer is so beautiful. And I love it like every season. I love picking up strawberrys and doing bike tours accross the fields. It's just that so many peole don't like the cold temperatures and melancholic mood in winter. Winter is my top season..I love sitting there and watching Christmas movies under my blanket, cuddling my pillow. Makes me happy. I also love walking through the snow - at night. alone. at places, i'm alone. a ghostly railroad. I love buying ice cream then. My hands start to freeze..it's cold and they freeze so much, I want to cry. But it makes me happy.

I know why it is like this with the seasons. In Winter everyone feels alone..And I feel understood. We all share our lonesomeness in Winter. But in Summer everyone is so happy..I'm happy, too. But there are just some moments..when I'm alone walking in the fields..I feel so freaking alone on this world. And then there is noone to understand me. Everyone is having barbecue and having fun. I like to be melancholic sometimes. Feeling alone and really being it. Although I know alone is a dangerous thing to be.

Summer reminds me of my first love. Of the good and the bad. All the kisses and all the moments he left me alone. In the middle of the way.

Memories. Everyone has them. I wonder if there is someone to have beautiful, sad Winter memories. Is it, what artists are made of?

- Oh my god. I feel it in the air.

 Telephone wires above are sizzling like a snare. 

Honey, I'm on fire, I feel it everywhere. 

Nothing scares me anymore.

I'm feeli' electric tonight.

Cruising down the coast goin' 'bout 99.

Got my bad baby by my heavently side.

I know if I go, I'll die happy tonight.

I think I'll miss you forever.

Like the stars miss the sun in the morning sky.

Later's better than never.

Even if you're gone I'm gonna drive..drive..drive.. -

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Lots of Love xoxo

♥

- With every heartbeat.

This statement automatically makes me think of the question: How much do you love it? Is remind remind you of quesions like: Do you love me? or How much do you love him/her? Do you miss her/him? 

Whatever occures inside of you, if you hear that sentence is a feeling. This three words sentence conjures up a feeling. To me a very strong feeling. The strongest. Love..And all of the feelings connected to love: Trust, Anger, Loss, Togetherness xo, Longing...

Although I have some negative feelings in mind the Longing is the strongest. I feel it's positive. It's positive to desire things, you love with every heartbeat. 

What do you love with every heartbeat? 

Just picture it, close your eyes and listen to the sound of your heart.

♥

Lots of Love xoxo