Struggling

Today I saw a video about the phrase 'Listen to your heart!' always suggested to people, who don't know how to act or what to believe. It sounds hopefully and is perfect if you don't know what to say.
But actually it's wrong just to listen to your heart, which is the centre of feelings, reason and will. Our heart often is influenced by our environment and not rarely do we want things, we know are stupid.

I think it's really hard to distinguish between 'real feelings' and feelings the mind creates. To be more concrete: Sexual attraaction often is a 'fake feeling' created by the liasion of some molecules inside of our brain. A 'real feeling' I lately had, was planing to move to Africa. I didn't really think about it for long..I didn't think of leaving everything and everyone behind, when I made that decision. I just started to react, as if I HAD to. I believe this is gods will.

So at the end of the video it was said, we have two hearts. One heart that is shaped by our environment and creates a whole lot of fake feelings and is full of our will. The other heart is full of gods will for us, it wants to be pure and provides real feelings for us. These two hearts are always struggeling with each other.

Which one are you going to listen to?

Lots of Love xx

Can time heal a broken heart?

I for myself can't answer this question with a clear 'yes!'. My first boyfriend and I were in a relationship for about a year and now it is already  3 years over. Still my heart is aching anytime I see him. The first year after the break up I couldn't even look at him, because it made me cry.
Sometimes I'm sad about the break up of a friendship with someone I could talk to about anything. The person suddenly stopped being carrying and didn't put any effort into being good friends.
I guess everybody could add something to this list of people we love and miss. People, we feel we need to make our life perfect. People, who obviously don't need us to be happy.

So will this broken hearted state of being ever change? I think time doesn't heal, but for sure teaches us a lot about life and ourselves..It teaches everyone of us how to handle the pain in a way, that's best for you. Don't freak out, if life sometimes throws you back where you already were once: In the bleeding area of your heart. ..Just try to survive the moment and go on. You are not alone.

Everybody feels pain. Our hearts are villages with houses full and empty. We still love the empty houses with their wild gardens and the smell of our beloved person in it. But we are heroes, because we can live on. I like to let god's grace be a sticking plaster for the ache inside of me.

Lots of Love xoxo

Don't let them define who you are!

The other day I talked to a girl, who said, she once was bullied in school for being ''different''. That made her lose her self-confidence and all along think about how ''different'' she is.
Nowadays nobody is bullying her anymore. She found a lot of great friends and is very beautiful and self-confident. It was hard to believe her story about being different. My answer to it was: ''At the age of 14 everyone is 'different'''.

There are a million stories like this. You could exchange the ''being different'' with being ugly, fat, thin, stupid, short, shy etc.

My answer to bullying is not ''Stop bullying!", because at some age and in some periods of life  it is normal and we all came or will come across this topic. My answer is:

- Stretch your middle finger to the world, to the world! ;-p -

We often enough take it to serious, when someone calls us something. We let ourselves define by what other people think about ourselves..If everybody thinks you are to fat, you start to think you are. 

I ask myself: Why?

What do you have from defining yourself through peoples eyes and words? Only disadvantages.

Sometimes people told me I'm naive. One day I started to believe them and with feeling naive I also got a feeling of being stupid. My self esteem shrunk and I began to see myself in a negative light. It even made me feel to fat and not beautiful or unique enough. Eventually my communicative state of mind switched into shyness.

Then I grew older and realized how self-destructive this was. I picked up the broken pieces of my self-confidence and glued them back together. A beautiful time of my life began. I tell myself everyday: ''You are beautiful, smart, simply awesome. You have a great body, mind and soul. You are unique, blessed, talented and loved. There is no other you that is THAT hilarious awesome and no other you at all!''

And guess what? I really believe I am and therefore everyone else believes it, too ;-) 

Surround yourself with positive energy and a positive attitude about yourself and life and it will surely affect your environment and especially the people around you! :-)

Have a great day.

Lots of Love xoxo

Sex

This is about us people. - Having sex with others we feel attracted to.

- She keeps open up the present, to find that it's empty -

Lots of Love xoxo

Who are you?

You have to get lost to find yourself. 

We all have busy lives: work or school, family, hobbies, daily tasks, responsibility.. 

Aren't you often enough gliding from one situation of life to another? I do. And when I do, everyday, there isn't a lot of time to think about myself. And if there is time, I use it for sleep. 

Sleep as a kind regeneration..just sleeping, because I'm tired, without really thinking about anything else, than sleeping itself. But this regeneration is not a real relaxation. 

Regeneration to me means, getting your physical power back. You need to be fit to master your everyday life, so you sleep. Relaxation is more - it's not only physical, but mental.

Sleeping, or regeneration, can be an emotional cure as well..from stress or as a remedy to overcome a bad day. But real mental attention can be just given by relaxation.

We all need to relax sometimes. Really renew ourselves. 

- Consciously take time to think about yourself. What kind of person are you? What do you want in your life? 

Find yourself. 

Because you will have these moments in life, which will "bring you back" to where you were before. You will have moments, where you won't be able to think about what is good for you. And then you'll do crazy, stupid shit...because you're mentally not prepared for doing awesome things.

As for me, I was so happy, when I found an entry about "how i think a perfect life should be" in my diary..It was one of the moments my emotions told me "this is how." about a situation and person, that really didn't suited any of my expectations. I am so happy, that I used a moment of sanity to write down what I want for myself in life. 

Lots of Love xoxo

Remind yourself of

Sometimes you forget, how you have lived before this one person came into your life.
But you have lived. And i believe it was quite awesome at moments.

Lots of Love xoxo

You are here!

I'm often scared of places I'll have to go in life. I don't like changes and would love life to stay as it is right now. But then I remember this quote - and I feel good. God knows better, right? 

The place where you are now, god marked on a map for you.

Lots of Love xoxo