..and I'll sing the Blues if I want!

Can't tell how much this song touched me. You're free to be whatever you wanna be and wherever you please.

Lots of Love xoxo

journey of life

all my friends knew what they wanna be in life since like .. ever. by 'what they wanna be in life' i don't mean, which job they wanna have, but the whole direction of their life.
spring, summer, autumn, winter, spring and summer again. the seasons were changing so fast and i still didn't know what to do with my life. she wanted be a doctor, he a maths man. they wanted to marry. another person's wish was to start a family soon and her friend wished to move out of this town.. and what about me? i was like: don't ask me.. CAUSE I DON'T KNOW!
ok. last year of school began. i was so afraid..school will end in twelve month and i will start the journey of life. i already have the tickets, see it clear in front of me. but where will this journey take me? which way to take? there's so many and nothing seems to fit me. my character. my talents (do i have even talents? i don't know.). i was thinking about these questions SO many times. no answer. i imagined myself in a lot of different jobs and life situations. i thought i could maybe be a doctor in future - but then i realized i hate biology. i wanted to move to another country, far away from where i'm now - but then i realized i'm a family person and need to stay right here with my family.
so all of my thinking doesn't show ANY results. i got frustrated and gave up thinking about my future. i just prayed: please god, show me the way.
you know..prayer's the best for all trials.

one day, a very long time after i gave up thinking about the future, i sat outside..just doing something. i don't remember what i was doing. but i remember that at one moment i lifted my head up ..like for NO reason, i just did it, cause i felt like doing it. and you know what i saw in front of me from the distance? elementary school.
this was the moment i knew what i wanna do in my life, which way i wanna take, where the journey will take me. i didn't think about jobs that moment at all. this school was ALWAYS near my house. it was there, since i was a little child. i saw it a hundred million thrillion times. but these one time it was different.. i looked at it and saw me in it. my future. it was a clear sighn. something i have ever known became a sighn. and i saw it.
from this moment on i know: i wanna be a teacher. i wanna teach children to write, read and just live. i wanna change people's lives.
it's like with the traffic lights: if you have any problems you get the red signal. just wait for some time and it will turn green without you doing anything. ps: you can reach everything you want to if you believe in it. this is not a stupid, always repeated sentence, but the truth. tired feet always say the path is long.

 - You will recognize your own path when you come

upon it, because you will suddenly have all the energy and imagination

you will ever need. -

This is for my cousin. he'll know. 

Lots of Love xoxo

love & tears

ever wondered about the connection of these two words?

- love.tears -

cause i did. often i think about how much love must be in a persons little heart..i read about love. hear about love. write about love. feel love.. sometimes, even if i feel like no one is responding to these love, it makes me cry. its like the more you love, the more you cry. 

maybe the beauty and huge presence of love in our own hearts just makes me cry. and maybe these tears are tears of love. i believe theres more love in ourselves than stars in the universe. in everyone. 

now, this has a meaning:

Lots of Love xoxo

maturity

I read this quote and it touched my heart, right where and how I was. Make up your mind on your own:

- Perfect maturity is when a person hurts you 

and you try to understand their situation and don't hurt them back -

Lots of Love xoxo

hopefull

Don't lose hope. What belongs to you will come home someday. It really will. 

Lots of Love xoxo

Why you do that?

Just can't understand why people always try to find everything out. I mean about the world. Why do you care what's behind the universe? Why do always say that things you haven't seen with your pair of eyes - and which no one has ever see - are a lie? Why do you want to know everything about all the world and what's behind? And if you may find it one day. How will you know that's what true? Why can't you just be happy?? Knowing exactely doesn't bring any effort. It doesn't even make you feel better on the long run. You know what's so much more important? Your dreams. Your dreams are what is true. That what's in your heart is true. Even if you can't see it, touch it, smell it. It's wonderful truth and you know.
Mother Teresa knew before;

- All that we need to know. All the wisdom of the Cosmos, we will find in our own heart. -

Take care of your heart being true and than everything else will become cristal clear.

Lots of Love xoxo

Echoes in my heart.

- Kind words can be short and easy to speak, but their echoes are truly endless. -

..like this advice is so short and so simple. Why don't you just be kind today? Tell people what you appreciate about them. And if you don't find the right words, just say: I love you..

Lots of Love xoxo